You look on your nightstand!
The green bottle is just some cologne your brother got you to celebrate your high school graduation. Most may think it's a lame gift, but you treasure it a lot! Sometimes you refer to it as your gender affirming juice in your head, but you'd never tell anyone that.
There's also a picture of yourself and your brother when you guys moved out! Gosh, you were so young back then. And Rhett looks so weird with a clean shaven face... or maybe that's Reed? You have a really hard time telling them apart sometimes, especially with how things were back then.
And, other than that, there's nothing but random junk in the drawers. Maybe you should try looking around your BOOKCASE, or maybe your CLOSET, or your DESK. Or you could just GIVE UP.